Brief blurb tonight, I guess, since it's late and I really should sleep.  I just couldn't resist.

I was going through reviews (still) and I found the link to this fic that I started once, and then stopped because I couldn't handle the character...development, I suppose.  It was a post-FIN fic, which I normally wouldn't touch (hell, I barely do classic), but I tried it out anyway.  Read a bit, and then realized...if the soulmates aren't going to be together, if G is going off with some Moroccan captain...I don't want to keep reading.  I skipped to the end and they end up together (the right couple), but as I was scrolling through the story to the end (lots of pages, so hitting end didn't help that much), I caught a couple of words that clearly indicated they were having sex.  And despite the 'happy' (yeah right) ending, I couldn't bring myself to read the whole thing to get there.

It's unrealistic, but I expect my fics to go a certain way.  The right people have to end up together.  It's okay if they're with other people in the beginning/middle, as long as it leads them to the proper person.  They have to be happy at the end with the person though, and I didn't like at all the fact that the captain sacrificed herself so they could be together.    I know, it gets her conveniently out of the way, but it just didn't make sense to me.

Plus, I'm reading for the development of the relationship of the main couple.  I want the story to lead to them getting together or something like that.  I don't care for development of the side couple, I don't want to know how happy they are, and I certainly don't want them getting in the way of the proper pairing's happiness.  It's just so frustrating, especially the way this fic was set up.  I don't think G would've done it.  It hurt a lot, yes, to lose her soulmate.  But I think as long as they were together (sort of), I don't think she would've accepted comfort in anyone else's arms.  She's sort of a masochist, or she wouldn't have lasted through all those seasons.  I wanted her to take what she could get, even if it hurt, even if it led her down a dark, cold path, because I thought she would remain loyal to the end.

Maybe it's just me.  I would've accepted sexual tension.  I would've accepted close calls and maybe even a drunken tryst or two.  But actually falling in love with someone else...that's unacceptable.

Is it so unreasonable to expect that a fic, a fic with a happy (sort of) ending, would be able to keep them in love with each other?  And yes, I know there's the whole 'your heart is big enough for more than just me,' but I think that's crap.  If you can love two people equally, at the same time, should you really be with either one?  Seems to me like you're half-assing it.

Or maybe it's the fic I read before that.  But no, I don't think it's that.  Because that's what I expect.  I expect that if they're in love with each other, it's just them.  No third party who intrudes and is 'equal'.

Too romantic?  Perhaps.  Nice to think about though.  And there is so much I could get into on that topic, but it's 2 in the morning and if I start, I'll talk until 3.  At least.  Too many fics will do that to you.

But is it too much to ask for to find someone who will be like that?  Who can be that good to you, that good with you?  I wonder about it sometimes.  And I look around, and I always get depressed.  How many couples have you met that are truly, truly happy?  Like, long-term happy, not new relationship happy.  I see contentment.  I see a lot of ambivalence too.  It makes me sad.

Going to bed will make me happy though.  ^__^